deep cuts

Listening to Taylor Swift deep cuts reminds me of being 22 and riding in his car in the middle of night to nowhere and anywhere. No money but we had each other. I wouldn't want to go back to those nights but despite how it all ended and not missing him like I once did... I sometimes miss finding someone who appreciates the magic and intensity of 3am deep conversations and letting the night take control. 

reintroduction: ANTI CAMOUFLAGE + colour therapy

A designer with my own clothing brand "DIKKOGLIMMER" that was born from a terrible break up over 3 years ago. Feeling misunderstood and belittled by many for being emotional and vulnerable - I was an irrational person and made many bad choices - I picked myself up from nothing and based my debut collection 'ANTI CAMOUFLAGE' on vulnerability being a sign of greatness. 

Skip to 2017 following another two heartbreaks and releasing my latest collection 'colour therapy' (a collection based on healing, social anxiety and the power of colour)... I wonder if creating my art and making it so personal is really helping me or if I need to vent out my issues on some other platform. I want to beat my own inner battles in many ways as I still have issues with vulnerability despite what I preach. 

Maybe I'll showcase this, maybe I won't.

So I am self aware; a quality I've always appreciated and I wake to a new week, in a town I despise with a relapse. Sometimes it feels like all the successes I achieved over the summer mean nothing when I take two steps back but in time, I will know that's wrong. 

I overthink about the 4 casualties that have changed my life in some way and try to self reflect and stop blaming myself. Maybe I expected too much or maybe I needed that wake up call. Need some time to reflect more, as a sensitive person and living in a state of limbo - I know I need to make some changes before I go to an old teen pattern of self destruction.

what if he hates me

Over the last month I have been dealing with thoughts or anxieties like I have not experienced before. I question everything like friendships and relationships and overthink to each and every other degree that I am no longer good enough. I'm scaring my boyfriend away. What if he hates me? I've been flaky or distant or become overly sociable but full of regret after. I post online and delete right away or the day after because I'm feeling annoying or insecure.

It's making my brain ache with overthinking who am I and have I suddenly perceived who I do not know if is entirely me. It is starting to affect me creatively as well and I now have to  get back to what is important to me. What I need to focus on and learn from this. 

I can't sleep again and it's affecting my mood. I lie awake not knowing what is wrong with me. Have I overthought myself insane? 

minted

shots by keir laird
hair + make up by sarah macinnes
assistance by alan edwardo dodds
clothing by minted glasgow

class 1

screen prints

++++

23

>everything falls into place
>you don't look for it but yet there it is + it hits you hard in the face
>dirty hair at 6am + loneliness at parties 


- something new might be coming.

tuesday nights

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