au parc

even if i stay and walk where we walked,

follow the same paths, at the same time of day

even if i'm the same, even if i'm beautiful

it'll all be there, it'll all be there
except for you

doodle

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thoughts #3

i've got into that cycle again. i've been thinking too much again. i'd be lying if i said i've been happy for months and that everything is going well. i always want just one more day, one more week and i fall behind everytime because i over analyse what they said and i said. it drives me crazy. partying on balconies and throwing away torn pieces of paper out of the window can only help for a couple of hours. when my mind is busy, i am happy, i can only manage keeping a poker face on for so long. sometimes i wish i had the strength right now to cut it out of my life and move on but i'm still floating around like an idiot after months. sometimes moving away just isn't enough

library playlist

spent the full day today doing work listening to full albums back to back (in this order):

The Drums - The Drums
Sheena Easton - Greatest Hits
Best Coast - Crazy For You
The Pains of Being Pure At Heart - The Pains of Being Pure At Heart
Missy Elliott - Under Construction
Spice Girls - Spiceworld
Tom Tom Club - Wordy Rappinghood
Aretha Franklin - Aretha Now
David Bowie - Hunky Dory
Rihanna - LOUD
Electric Light Orchestra - The Very Best of Electric Light Orchestra
M.I.A. - /\/\/\Y/\
Lady GaGa - The Fame Monster

screen caps

friends in my bed

con

are they your friend or are they just that someone who was floating around a lot?

confidence

sadly, i can only imagine what it was like to be a teen in the 80s

trash

dancing in my underwear